The News

Well, now that people have been told, leases are being signed, and jobs are being seeked, it's time to tell the tale.  We are moving to California.  Sacramento, to be specific.  Yes, it's crazy.  Yes, it's a HUGE leap of faith.  But what is the title of this blog?  The FIRST day of the rest of your life.  We will be living a dream by moving out of GA and relocating to the west coast.  It's so weird to think that soon we will be southern transplants, but it's a new beginning.  The first thing we've promised our son is to get him signed with a talent agent as soon as we get moved, so hopefully by August 1, he will be on his way to stardom!;)  We leave GA June 27th ... The journey will be documented!

Upcoming stuff ...

I'm beginning to come back to reality.  My new normal is different, but in a way a relief.  It's really QUIET around the house.  Timbre had gotten to where he was breathing SO hard.  I don't know what was going on with him, but he sounded like Darth Vader:(  But he's now running free and making his way through tall grass somewhere, blowing bubbles in a horse trough!  2 of his favorite activities:)

I've been pretty down the last 2 or 3 weeks, knowing what was about to happen.  I've got a lot of things going on right now that are stressing me out to a degree, but I've released all that!  There are still some moving parts to nail down in my grand master plan before I release it to the atmosphere, but I'm finally starting to get excited about things.  I would like to  go Insane again soon, but my motivation level is pretty much non-existent!  I've been maintaing my size 10 perfectly, but I've definitely noticed my nice, tight arms and legs and even back are going back to "soft".  I HAVE been running more; in 8 runs, I've run almost 20 miles.  I average a 12.48 minute mile, and that includes a little bit of walk time.  I'm proud of myself!  I went 6 miles last week, and did GREAT.  I ran 8 mins, walked 2 for the full 6 miles.  It definitely is harder doing my runs now that I'm not going Insane 6 days a week, but unlike before I started Couch to 5K, I CAN run as long as I feel like.

Just working on finding my happiness again.  Somewhere along the way, Life has burned it up a little bit, but I have fanned the flames.  They're starting to burn again.  My life is a PERFECT example of taking a great big leap of Faith ... my new motto is about to be "Live like you are Dying".  Don't let ANYTHING or ANYONE hold you back from doing what you want and desire.  We only get one shot at this life, no sense in wasting it away.  Be kind, do good, be selfless, and no matter what is happening in your own life, happiness will find YOU.  God bless y'all, Peace:)

The Empty Corner

This is a link to my other blog that I wrote about Timbre.  The day was today that I laid him to rest.
Timbre; 1999-2013

Struggling to find the silver lining.

Timbre Rufus, best dog in the world!!

Well, life isn't getting any easier, but I'm trying to remain positive and find the joy in life.  First and foremost, I am healthy.  Secondly, my husband and son are healthy.  POSITIVES!  We have a roof over our head, fuel in our vehicles, and computers on our lap ... we are blessed.  However, I've set the day for sending my first kid over the "rainbow bridge".  He was a gift from my husband in August of 1999, 2 months after our marriage.  I'd been wanting a dog for a few years, but Mom and Dad said absolutely NOT.  Even David had said "Not right now, we need to focus on getting our new life together up and going".  And then he dropped this ADORABLE tri color fuzz ball in my arms after I came home from a hard day working at summer camp, and I cried.  The Cobb County animal shelter had said he was a Husky, but I could see instantly he was NOT, lol.  David had no idea, this was just The One.

Timbre brought David and I together as husband and wife.  We had a "child" to parent together, to teach and to nurture and to love.  He went all over with us, to Tennessee and Florida and Alabama ... we took him on "day" trips to go hiking, to the GA coast, and when Kody was born, he was a best friend to all 3 of us.  He's been there throughout our entire married life, and now it's time to let him go.  He had FHO surgery on his hip about 4 years ago, and today he is obviously in pain.  He struggles to get up, he's lost much of his control over his bodily functions, and he has large lumps on his body.  During the past year, his breathing has become labored more and more often; I believe he has a lump on or near his lungs that's restricting his air flow.  Timbre owes us NOTHING; he has been nothing but a blessing not only to us, but also to our extended family.  He deserves to go out with dignity, before he's in debilitating pain and having to wear diapers.  My heart has broken into a million pieces, but I know it's the right decision for my boy.  I'm trying not to feel sorry for myself because as stated above, I'm blessed to the nines, but I just feel like I'm losing huge chunks of my heart with Timbre going to doggy heaven and placing my horse up for sale.  I feel very lost and sad right now, and I just wish my life were different:(  I'm clinging to the joy for those crucial things, my health, my family, etc. and trying not to dwell on the bad things.  This too shall pass.